It’s a Doozy

I flipped the t.v. on after working out and turned to Disney+.

Usually I would just turn on The Simpsons. However I noticed a new one called Single Drunk Female. About a 20 something woman who is an alcoholic. She gets herself into trouble and has to return home after a stint in rehab.

I am on episode 4 already and really enjoying it. I would recommend it whole heartedly.

And the fact that I am 634 days sober makes it relatable.

April 13/22

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Patchwork Girl

****10 Days****

Falling down
rabbit hole deep
lost in a swirl
of blackness
of pain
no possible way out.
Round and round I go
never ending carousel
riding the pony
reaching for the stars
out of bounds
out of my orbit
a dream unrealized.
When I look in the mirror
a cadaver stares back
blooded rivets in my skin
holding me together
pinning me as I am
no change
no feelings
utter blackness
a void where once my heart was.
Detached
looking at myself from afar
disgusted
deranged in my addiction
hurting body and soul
to hide
to unacknowledge the girl
desperate for release
for acceptance
for forgiveness
scratching beneath the surface.
on my knees
screaming my rage
frothing with murderous desire
I slowly reunite
each broken piece
knitted back together
until I become the woman I am…..
flawed
patchwork colourful
beautiful
healthy
growing
learning every day.
No longer do I fear.
No longer do I hide.
I am who I am.
Warts and all.
Accept me or not…..
I really don’t care.
© Dec. 13/19
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