Word of the Day Challenge #108-Untitled Poem

It’s hard
ya know?
With each thimbleful
each swallow
darkness grows
sucking me down
craving grows
grows
until it is all I think of.
Sweet nectar
spilled over tongue
whispered
succulent promises
desire
naked
upon my face
eyes glazed
not sure how I got here
where I am.
It’s hard 
ya know?
Judging eyes
boring into me
hearing hisses
snaked tongue
gossip
pulling me down
pulling me to hell
why
do they hate me so?
What have I done?
It’s hard
ya know?
Watching
destruction of beauty
of intelligence
not understanding
inky shadows
tormented waking nightmares
twisted
crawl forward
no longer hearing
no longer feeling
letting go
I am sorry
I can no longer hold you upright.
©July 28/20
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Untitled Love Poem #2

I thought I was done.
No more words
no more sorrow
no more hitch of breath
when these memories cross my mind.
Brokenhearted
sadness tinged remembrances
viewed through reality
knowing what was coming
knowing how it would end
bittersweet
yet I would do it
all over again.
Settling over me
mist of time
recalling moments
magic
small tear escaping
our good times
were so damn good
we fit together.
The ending
volcanic catastrophe
numbing my soul
numbing my affections
turning us daft.
Regret nothing
I do not.
Wait…..
I do have regret
nothing to do with you
to do with myself….
I regret my panic.
I regret my decision to stay.
I regret believing you 
as you told me it would be fine.
I do not regret
our love
our time
for what you gave to me
what you taught me
are lessons
no one else could have.
You built my confidence.
You built my art.
You built my belief in me.
You pushed me 
made me more myself.
Always will I love you
even as 
we do part.
©May 18/19
Picture via Pinterest found for me by The Eclectic Contrarian