Lonely Girl

Waves
silky smooth water
crystal clear
I wade through
lost in my thoughts
my wonderings
head so far in the clouds
many wonder
are my feet on the ground?
I am a lonely girl
building sand castles
from fluffy white clouds
when all I want
all I need…..
Romance
love
adoration
once words I spoke aloud
with meaning
emotion
now are dead
tasteless
tripping from my tongue
venom to the soul.
I am a lonely girl
building sand castles
with moats 
with gates
along the sea shore
when all I want
all I need…..
Courage
bravery
determination
I will move through
face the pain
give grief its home
yearning for absolution
ability to forgive myself.
I am a lonely girl
building fantasies
romances
holding my heart captive 
when all I want
all I need……
I use to think was you. 
©April 25/19
Picture via Pinterest and as always found by The Eclectic Contrarian
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Reality Returns

Beautiful songs
merest whisper
tantalizing breath of air.
Spring’s breeze
caressing my body
tempting me
like your scent
like your hands
like all of you
even as we sit so far apart.
When did it change?
When did it become so hard?
Why does my heart cry out?
Why does yours not respond?
Tears dry
lips curve into a smile
as you move along
pressing to my side.
Fingers following wetness
tracing a path upon my cheek
questions in your eyes
as I peer up at you.
Is this a second chance?
A second coming?
Love finally coming home?
You hand me a cup
steaming
warm
sweet smelling tea
wrapping your arms around.
With gentle kiss
safety once more found
wanting to sit like this forever
knowing that reality
will once more come around.
©April 23/19
Picture via Pinterest found by The Eclectic Contrarian

Hidden Heart

Twist 
turn 
curve around
make sure to follow
left
right
not north
not south
or never shall I be found.
Heart of the maze
surrounded by thorns
kept in a casket.
Hidden deep beneath
safeguarded
dragon’s hoard
escape from
hide from
pain
that cripples
blackens my sight.
Tip toe
brutal cold
mist arises
coating stairs with ice
another maze
hidden dangers.
You shall never know my plight.
Deep within this fort
made of bone
made of blood
made of stone
a sarcophagus
etched with acid
tears
grief…..
my heart is hidden 
safe from promises
safe from love
safe from a world 
harboring no illusions
never again
will I love.
April 22/19
Photo found on Pinterest by The Eclectic Contrarian

Hero of my Heart

All I want…..
your hands on my body
your lips
trailing kisses neck to knees.
I want to feel….. 
desire
to squirm with delight
your body against mine.
I imagine…..
things that only you can do.
I imagine….. 
kisses that only you can give.
I imagine….. 
hunger filled nights
sated mornings
I imagine…..
dreams
floating on clouds
and soft beds.
I imagine…..
a love like the ones read.
I imagine…..
a life
as found in fantasy
and wonder
was I once a fairy princess?
Where is my Hunter?
Sent to capture and instead…..
makes love.
Where is my King?
Who sees the truth and still…..
craves me.
Where is my Jester?
Touched by the ugliness
the horror
of heart and soul
of demons I cannot shed
he comes to me.
Protector.
Guardian.
Champion.
White knight 
on a fine white steed.
Hero of my heart.
©April 21/19
Picture via Pinterest

Now & Forever

Feeling the brush of your lips
against the side of my neck
your hand holding my hair
caught tight in your fist
I tremble.
Desire flooding my body
betrayal
worst kind
still I want you
your hands
lips
body pressed to mine.
Teeth nipping sensitive skin
fingers digging
moans
struggling to keep them from you
not wanting to give in
fighting to control
knowing that I cannot.
I am powerless.
Flash that smile
chocolate eyes melting
I will fall to my knees
head bent in submission
defenseless
your voice curls
guttural
thick with passion
unable to stand
you have me at your mercy.
I am writhing.
I am yours.
Now 
&
Forever more.
©April 20/19
Picture via Pinterest and found by The Eclectic Contrarian.

Untitled Word of the Day Poem #29

Howls
frenzied
fierce
baying
fleeing from the hunter
fleet of foot
mazes my protection.
Dancing between love
hate
fear
joy
racing for the front door.
Hoping……
I shall barricade myself
shield myself
harbor
budding love
flecked with burgeoning fear
things cannot remain
as they are.
I cannot keep from you
pain
horror
rejection
drowning with despair
disheartened
as you reach for me
ready to ply your trade.
Beneath the crescent moon
shadows cavort
devil’s prey
casket caught……
Freedom 
found my way…..
Pain 
your only way out.
©April 19/19
Image by diema from Pixabay

Blinded (Picture Prompt #10)

Moonlight
sunlight
dawn’s early rays
scented air.
Sea salt
lilacs
romance
roar of the waves
crashing to shore.
Time slows
seconds become minutes
minutes become hours
hours……days……years
when does it end?
Sand trickles through my fingers
each grain 
a specific memory of our lives.
Nostalgic
I yearn for days of summer 
strawberry kisses
wine glazed bodies
hot looks
desire sparking from the slightest touch.
Winter has fallen
dreary
grey
alone so I am.
taste of your lips
brush of your fingers
lust
love.
An affair to remember
to ruminate over
silent tears
forgotten pain…..
why oh why
am I so blind?
Copyright April 17/19
Picture via Pinterest again provided by The Eclectic Contrarian