Careless

I always whisper
‘wait a day’
before I send the message
for I lack patience.

Wait and see if you will answer
maybe text me first?
In this day of instant gratification
I only want you
to respond to me.

We spoke the code
this new generation
of not dropping
into feels.

Do not look to me for love
do not look to me at all
for really this need I have
it requires only a boy to sate the craving.

Yet sit here I do,
checking each text
hoping that it will be you.

Nope, that one rings false,
‘hey baby how you doin’?
Wanna get laid tonight?’
The only way I can get you to respond.

Wrapped in your arms
salt upon my lips
I lack the ability to be careless.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen
November 18/17

Long Distance Love Affair

My tears become the stars in the sky

lighting your way.

My dreams become the songs your play

to stay awake.

Each mile takes you further away

and I am scared,

we will never meet again.

Tempted to run after you

to throw caution to the wind

to proclaim aloud the way I feel

and not to dread…..

Dread the rejection

fear the pain

I cannot speak these words.

My tongue bound with silver threads

my soul bound in an iron cage

my heart bound with brambled thorns

to keep me safe and sound.

Every mile becomes a lifetime

driving us further apart

and the whispered promises

of I’ll be back

fades to black as the curtain falls to a close

on this long distance love affair.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

 November 15/17