History

Lips meeting
tongues caressing
body to body
we yield.
The scent of you
the aroma of me
combined
is heady to the senses.
Caresses light
fingers trail across skin
heat follows each touch
as moans fill the air.
The times we have together
redolent of past lives
for we fit
two pieces of a puzzle
unlike with anyone ever before.

Infinite

I listen
hear what you really are saying
under the words you speak
the emotions
the pleasing
is there for all to see.
So similiar
in more ways that we can count
it is scary
it is exhilirating
when two can become as one.
There are rules
there are guidelines to be followed
if this shall ever be
an abiding love
for all eternity.

Under your Skin

Under you skin
push me away
disdain the truth I offer
looking instead to the pain
to the abuse
that has always come before.
Under your skin
you are not sure
unable to trust
that the words I speak
my actions
they coincide.
Under your skin
I make you writhe
uncomfortable
as I show you
there is a different side.
Under your skin
I scare you so much
for this
neither of us were looking for.
Under your skin
under my skin
we dance with heat
amongst the constellations.
One step forward
ten back
we feel our way
we fight our way
to
trust and adoration.
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Howling at the Moon

Last night
wrapped within the warmth of your arms
forgetting that there were others around
my moans became a wailing tune
as you made me howl to the moon.
Twisting and turning
sheets entangled with legs
mouths reaching
senses bleeding
as we became one.
Lost
our moans filled the house
forgetting how thin the walls can be
let’s just say
this morning with red face
I felt so awkward
as everyone pretended they had heard nothing.
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Wake Up

It is very hard for me

to wait

to be patient

while you dance with play toys

and I watch from the distance.

There were no rules

there were no plans

there were no expectations

yet

I cannot lie

I have fallen head over heels

dying a little inside

each time you ignore me.

I have taken a stand

I have backed off

backed up

turned off my heart

turned off my head

I will remain on the outskirts

until you finally wake up.

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Good bye My Love

I have fallen

not at your feet

but within myself

and there is no going back.

Now

you are entwined with my past

the hurt

the pain that I feel.

I wish that it had not happened this way

I wish that I could still be yours

yet I know

there is no way

that I can submit to you again.

My way of saying good-bye

it was not right

I should have explained further

I should have explained it at all

there is no way of knowing

what monsters lay in my bed.

Memories that have been hidden

you brought to the forefront

the anguish

the pain

the darkness that enveloped

I curled within myself.

Screaming in my head.

I am sorry my love

I wish it could  be different

we must walk away

while love is still everlasting.

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Jay-lyn Doerksen

July 26/17

Eternal Hope

Sitting by the rain splattered window

watching you walk away

I should have known better

I should never have said…..

that you make me smile

that you make me warm inside

that I could see a future

one in which we were together

I should have kept my big mouth shut.

I saw the blinders come down

I saw you shutter your heart

face hard with disbelief

you stared at me

shaking your head

this was not what we had discussed.

I cannot help the way that I feel

these emotions crept up on me

I know the truth

my love is unrequited

yet my hope springs eternal.