Rose Colored Glasses

A blanket of fresh snow
squeaking beneath my feet
crisp air
frost on the trees
a chilling beauty
as I walk along.
Memories
hard
fast
attack
left 
right 
from the heart.
I cannot stop them.
I do not want to stop them.
Even as tears sidle
freezing on rosy cheeks
I glut myself
upon these remembrances.
Summer sun
fast cars
time of my life.
I fell in love
(still so much in love)
opened my heart
my soul
my secret self
giving you everything
while you…..
took 
and took….
and took some more…..
bleeding me dry
of emotion
faith 
trust in me.
Rose colored glasses
perched on my nose
unable to see
regardless 
that all others could
how toxic
you and me were.
 
 
Feb. 6/19
Photo by Rory Hennessey on Unsplash
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Single Moment

Today’s world moves too fast
minutes that pass as seconds
hours and days that pass in a single blink
that everyone has forgotten…..
the joy of slowing down
the elation at seeing the sun rise
the aroma of freshly blossomed buds
wet dew dampening toes
in the summer morning.
Waves watched
sand castles built
setting sun
turning the water
a golden hue
children taking a final swim
before the day is done.
enjoyment
fun in the sun
I do believe
it is time to slow down
to take part
in the joy of the life around me.
September 2/18

Summer Moon

Glances

meeting across the room

Smile

flitting across my lips

Head tilt

hair falling forward

a veil I hide behind.

You turn

your profile

bathed in golden sunlight

a shadow

burned into my retinas

eyes closed

I see you still.

A summer dalliance

of laughter

of lust

of desire

never meant to last

passed the final summer moon.

Photo by Jason Darrell on Unsplash

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Believe

Coffee wafts through the air
senses becoming alert
no time to feel despair
no time to stop and relate
life is such a busy state
never a chance to recall
the missed times of childhood late.
Love
Misery
Divorce
Life
Reboot
Recall
Re-love?
Sunshine and swing sets
parks and long walks
children laughing
corn fattening
this is what memories play.
Work
Bills
Lawyers
Alcohol
Drugs
Fall
Get up
Give up
Come clean
Reconnect
Re-dream?
Cabin in the summer rain
war played on the carpet
memories that do explain
all about happiness.
I am not as lost as I feel to be
I am not as unfounded
ungrounded as I view myself. 
Within me lays the strength of the Titans
Within me lays the power to be
Within me lays the well of hope
all I need to do is believe. 
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
April 29/18