Word of the Day Challenge #85-Untitled Poem

***This poem is bleak and harsh. I am sorry but for some reason this is what kept coming to me when I thought of kidnap.****
So pretty
blonde curls
blue 
ocean deep blue
eyes
crinkling smile
she is so cute.
So handsome
hair cut short
dimpled lisp
he makes the short list.
Each one
bought
paid for with sin
eyes become vacant
smiles lost
mini adults they become.
Drugs
relief sought
dim the lights
erase the feelings
stare up at the ceiling.
In part
this is the joy
this is the reality
scare the child
as once a child was scared.
Where?
How?
Our children
kidnapped 
taken 
please bring them back.
Years
unanswered questions
parents
never giving up
hoping
believing
that one day
their child will come home.
In unmarked grave
forgotten
bones turned to dust
a madman’s game
evil’s true glint
from this
there is no return.
©Feb. 7/19
Picture is my own

Word of the Day Challenge #71-Untitled Poem

Beneath my feet
crystal grass tinkles
each step
another broken shard
driven through my heart
at how callous you are.
Nightmares gave way to light
beneath your sheltering hand
monsters driven
back into the woods
barred
broken down.
Bleak shawl
worn as a cowl
drawn over my head
pushed back
feeling the sun again
upon my face.
Song birds
chirp
chitter
sweet romance
on spring’s air
I came to you
tentative smile
pleading desperation
please do not hurt.
Stand upon the pier
gaze upon silver streaked waves
lover’s lament
tears mixed with rain
as I watched your hand
finally
slowly
slip beneath the surface.

©Nov. 9/19
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Let Me Be

Pleasure played
spell casted
sparkling lasso connects
pull me in
whisper sweet seduction
shivers anew.
Swooning
your hands creep across
tangled in my hair
trailed across my breast
heating my skin
lust born within.
Lost
eyes bedazzled
I cannot see
desperate
needing to forget
I fell right in.
Knees buckled
you caught me
swept me up
chaste kiss no more
consume my lips
taste the honey
allow me you must
to awaken.
I know the dangers
claw from this nightmare dream
a fleeting thought of happiness
truth is despair
black
grey
foggy
please
just let me be.

©Nov. 6/19
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Protector Anon

Desolate
grey rain
mimosa of grief
of pity
of ego hurt
mostly anger
not with you
but with myself.
Wrapped
clothed tight
black mourning cloth
wound round
tears escape
cotton borne
hide from all
cheerful mask
covers my pain.
Gutted
shattered
terms flow
expressing grief
vomiting forth
a sickened love poem
written in blood from hopeful heart
blackened with rot
hole where affections did lay
cast out
never more
shall I be allowed to hurt.
I swore the last was the last
only to be damned
to find myself falling once more.
Done
stay away
erected a fence
topped with shattered glass
barbed wire
hot electrical impulses
gun turret
all will make you run.
I am tired of this
of having to protect myself
over
over
over once more.
©Nov. 5/19
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Love’s Pain Never Lessens

This is an accompany poem to Your Fool.

Resigned
that is how I feel
why I thought this time would be different
I could not tell you.
When you said you loved me
I pashawed
how can you love someone from afar?
You can
for I do
which is why this pain
erupting inside of me
feels as though I am rending in two.
I want to wail
screech
pound upon the alter of fate
demanding to know
why am I the last always
prophesied to never have care
poor lonely woman
love has always been my downfall.
Whispered words
slipped between the worlds of reality
of dreams
of fantasy
lulling me
pacifying my need
for love and adoration.
Weep I shall
for fantasies unplayed
for dreams unrealized
letting go of this infatuation
with love
with the thought
that there is someone for me.
Head hung low
see not the tears aglitter
upon my cheeks.
Good bye my love
I shall whisper
into your sleeping ear
thank you for these times
but flee I must
staying here
will only bleed me.

©Sept. 30/19
Picture is one of my own Matlock Beach
2017

Your Fool

I feel the fool
as I sit here
tears seeping from my eyes
at the pain I feel
even though we are so far apart.
A part of my day
a love that I have
I told myself I was the one.
I thought
I do not know what I thought
I should have known
romance does not play out
I am the one
left sitting on the curb
wondering what went wrong.
I saw you accidentally
on a night you told me you were busy
I had gone out with some friends.
They tried to shield me
as they have before
but I saw you
I saw her in your arms
held tight
as you did with me last night.
Am I but a conquest?
Someone who you needed to control
to make your own
until satisfied
you rode on to the next one.
I told you
when you said I love you
I wanted none of that
I am too old
to play these teenage games.
I wish you farewell
for my heart is breaking in two
and if you stay near me
I will always be your fool.

©Sept. 30/19
Picture is one of my own taken Matlock Beach
2017

Emotionless…..I wish

I wonder 
I do
what is wrong with me?
Why do you come
only to run
once you have seen the real me?
Headstrong
just one of my features.
Delicate
emotional
head full of dreams.
Fantasies built
when I should know better
for never has anyone cared
long enough to hold my hand
to learn what it is about me
that draws them in
then chases them away.
Sadness
just one emotion I feel daily.
I give so much.
I tell myself
forewarned is forearmed
not this girl
I just fall.
Fall…..
fall…..
twist and turn
there is no way free.
Loneliness
I smile 
no one knows.
Grey mist shrouding
I walk……
alone
this path I tread
the same always since childhood.
Always have I cared for myself
yet once I want for someone…..
someone who will care for me
make me their priority.
Love
a wish flung to the stars
made on birthday candles
never shall I find.
©July 11/19
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