Untitled Poem Daily Word #12

I awoke this morning

from a beautiful dream

of me and you 

laying together 

building a future 

for ourselves

that can now no longer be true.

Tears

stream

seep

soak the pillow beneath me

as I lay 

my hand outstretched to that cold place beside

where once you did lay.

Every time I believe…..

I believe I have shuttered my heart

against the pain

the anguish

the sudden slam of memories

I discover 

I am wrong.

My heart

thawing beneath your love.

You shattered

destroyed

obliterated

the marble cage I had built

melted the barriers of ice between bars

reaching in

making me believe

in true love again.

I keep writing the same love song

humming it along

hoping to stem the flow of tears

weariness

pain

that I feel.

When does it end?

I do not even know.

I ask of you

when does it end?

I awoke before you could answer

tears shimmering 

unchecked

unfallen

in the corner of your eyes

as you reached for me

making my heart bleed again.

 

January 5/19