I wish I may
I wish I might
have this wish I wish tonight.
Staring at the skies above
how so large
the universe we live in
My eyes flit from star to star
as I wonder
which it is
that will grant
I know the truth
I know wishes will not come true
from the cold white radiance
I care not.
I wrap the night
a dark cloak around me
lost in the mysticism
of the firelight.
Thinking you have control over anything is an illusion. Nothing is concrete but fluid for it is determined by your own actions and reactions to any given situation.
I wish that there were more hours in the day. To accomplish all that I want to accomplish. (Work, exercise, clean, down time, read, write, did I mention clean?)
I wish that I would not feel the need to nag and nag and nag. To allow T the space in which to grow. (But at 18 he is released into society and I do not want to let out a caveman)
I wish that I was able to read each and every blog that I follow. To interact and connect with all those wonderful writers. (There are so many I feel I neglect)
I wish that I was able to carve out more space in my life. To allow others entry. (This though means letting them passed the facade I have created to protect myself.)
I wish that I was more confident. That I did not sometimes (always) undermine my worth.
I wish…..I wish…..I wish……
I wish that I would not feel guilty when I failed to accomplish all the above.
Because really I am doing the best that I can.