Worthless

Why?

Why do you

why do I

believe that we are not worthy?

Worthy

Of love

of happiness

of kindness by others.

We shun

spurn

destroy

rather than allow others close.

Easier

to not feel

to act the fool

shy behind a confident mask.

Tears

falling drop drop

head turned aside

ignoring the gnawing pain

that resides deep in out hearts.

Trust

reaching out

admitting need

want to be held

struggling to find the words.

Why?

I want to be found worthy.

I want to be found to love.

I want the happiness

that should be mine.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

July 9/18

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Somewhere in time

fantasies did grow

Over-taking all reality

until no longer

can one differentiate.

Was it madness?

a disease?

An escape from life?

swallowed in a mimosa of hatred

swaddled in grey.

Beating against enclosing walls

fists bleeding

numb with pain.

There is no escape from this truth

no matter how hard

no matter how fast

one tries to flee.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

July 24/17