Duality

There are dual sides
good
bad
sweet
evil
well that is four
all melded together
creating one,,,,,
me.
Sweet
caring for the world
caring for my friends
wanting nothing but the best
the everything
for everyone.
Bad
angry for injustice
angry at those who get away
fantasies play out
words written on paper
tablet
laptop
grim stories
within which I get my revenge.
Twirling
swirling
ribbon wrapped present
unite the sides
come together as one.
Singing words pleasant
singe words
brutal honesty
no longer hiding
embracing the light
loving the woman I have created.
©Sept. 13//19
Picture found on Pinterest
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Stand Alive

It’s that time again for those who keep track. Unless I screwed you up in the summer as I did myself when I got lost as to when Tember was home and when he wasn’t. Was posting poems willy nilly. 🙂

I have written a new poem Stand Alive over at Flyhiee.com. The poem coincides very nicely with today’s poem Timeless Travels written in response to Word of the Day Challenge  word Odyssey.

I hope you enjoy. I know that after writing both of them I feel really really good.

Have a great Sunday.

Timeless Travels

****There are times when I see the Word of the Day Challenge  word and the poem comes to me. Today’s word was such as word. I knew what I needed to write as soon as I saw today’s prompt. I hope you enjoy.****
Time comes when life is reviewed
whether at death
at birth
or
somewhere in between.
Childhood…..
rosy pictures
bleak dreams
nightmares bled into reality.
Teenager…..
anger
rage
disgust
angst so dense
surrounded me like a cloak
hiding me in plain sight.
Young woman…..
wanting
needing
searching
seeking for love
for someone to take care of me.
Ha ha
I bet you never thought that of me
strong as I am
independent as I am
that I would like to have some care for me.
Mother…..
terrified
as I beheld his tiny body
awed
when he looked at me
worried
will I prove to be enough
or with him shall I fail?
Woman I am…..
beautiful
sexual
loving
dreaming
head in the clouds
reawakening that child inside.
my journey
arduous
fraught with damage to psyche
killing attempts on the soul
has lead me here
to this precipice
no longer afraid to fall.
 
©September 8/19
Picture is one of my own.
Matlock Beach Manitoba 2017

BLC-Post

Dianna over at Thriving Not Surviving has created a new blog called Best Life Collaborative. Much as with Flyhiee I post there every other Thursday. Here though I write about life. Myself. Tember. (I use his full name in the posts on BLC) Relationships. And lessons. What I have learned. I have not shared any of these posts here but today is the day………I would like to share with you today’s post:

Hip Hip Horrah!

 

Tranquil Fluidity

Wind whipped hair
waves cresting
slamming into the shore
spumes spraying
soaking my toes.
I can no longer go on
can no longer cheer
I am so tired
I am so alone
I am so……
scared.
Embarking upon a journey
into heart
into health
into self
unsure what I am going to find
who I am going to find
only know that I must go on
discover what I may
about this strange woman I see in the mirror.
A smarter
stronger
resilient woman
one who cries at movies
one who laughs with no regard
as to how others are going to see her.
No longer am I an errant child
unable to see my way.
I reach out
tentative at first
with growing confidence
taking hold of my dreams
taking charge of my destiny.
No longer do demons chew
upon my nightmares
spewing black
vile poison
seeping into my pores
burning through my senses.
I found freedom.
I found my truth.
I found forgiveness.
I found peace. 
©August 28/19
Picture is mine.
Matlock Beach 2019

Emotionless…..I wish

I wonder 
I do
what is wrong with me?
Why do you come
only to run
once you have seen the real me?
Headstrong
just one of my features.
Delicate
emotional
head full of dreams.
Fantasies built
when I should know better
for never has anyone cared
long enough to hold my hand
to learn what it is about me
that draws them in
then chases them away.
Sadness
just one emotion I feel daily.
I give so much.
I tell myself
forewarned is forearmed
not this girl
I just fall.
Fall…..
fall…..
twist and turn
there is no way free.
Loneliness
I smile 
no one knows.
Grey mist shrouding
I walk……
alone
this path I tread
the same always since childhood.
Always have I cared for myself
yet once I want for someone…..
someone who will care for me
make me their priority.
Love
a wish flung to the stars
made on birthday candles
never shall I find.
©July 11/19
Picture via Pinterest

Freedom

Speeding down the road
top down
music blaring
running as fast as I can
from the pain
from the anger
from the rage.
Black pit
waiting
yawning
chasm deep
endless fall
turbulent.
Assailed
all sides
emotions
hurling at me so fast
I am unable to reconcile.
Where…..
what….
is the problem I run from?
I cannot find.
My mind is cloudy
my heart is closing
my mouth sealed
this way
misery contained.
Seeking sunshine
salt air
warm water
to surround myself
caress myself
lose myself
in acceptance.
Time has come
to clear
sweep
destroy
cobwebs lingering
embracing
truth
love
and self.
©May 11/19
Picture via Pinterest found by The Eclectic Contrarian