Time to Go

Within
Blackness
Vile
Wordless
Full of venom
Penetrating
Even as I cover my ears.
The voice
It taunts me.

I wish I could wave my wand
And the pain
The misery
Felt deep within
Would evaporate 
Even as the mask is once more
repaired 
So no one will know.

Listening to angry words
Playing over the airwaves
Letting them bleed beneath my skin
Buoying my soul
Bringing peace 
Bringing truth.

No one will berate 
No one will tear down 
As much as that voice on loop
Playing over and over:

Not good enough.
Not pretty enough.
Not smart enough.
Weird.
Ruins everything.
No one loves you.
No one will ever love you.

Bitch.
Get out of my head.
You have lived here 
Rent free
On my dime
But I refuse to allow it any longer.
The door it is over there.
Don't let it hit you on the way out.

June 24/24