Two become One…..

Winter
shrouds the ground
covering all in sleeping death
memories stored
forgiveness withheld
oh damn you poor woman.
Life attacks
in so many ways
how can you be sure
which lesson you should learn?
It is easy to differentiate.
At least it is for me.
I run
I hide
I try so hard
not to face the voice in my head.
I turn my eyes
I duck my head
I am weak
I am
I cannot
I will not
oh shit
hear it comes again…..
the voice
whispering
chiding
making me see.
Truth is not easy to face
to see.
It is painful.
Rip back the scab.
Rip back the veil.
It is time…..
amalgamate me.

©Oct. 13/19
Picture is my own

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Restoration of Self

This poem has been inspired by Christine of Poetry for Healing.

Her Daily Haiku-Sat. October 5, 2019

I saw a young woman
standing beneath crystal falls
head back
eyes closed
cleansing herself of her past.
Dark
depression
anger so raw
ravaged her soul
tore her apart.
Year upon year
she abused herself
she took the drugs
she drank the booze
hiding from the truth
blade driven into her heart
time was coming
she needed to mend.
Suicide was not upon her mind
the night it came crashing down
all there was
a howling void
being fed
stop shrieking
stop raging
stop
stop
stop
stop
I can take it no longer.
Yes
for that is me
young
old
middle
I am all of that
and so much more.
Look into the mirror
see no longer shame
beautiful woman
you have grown.
Entwine
image old and new
behold
glorious woman
you are renewed.
I saw a young woman
she stood beneath the falls
washing away perceived sins.
Pushing back
long golden locks
I realized it was me.
Forgiveness is a place
deep deep inside
that is where to heal begins.
I grow
I love
I desire
a new life for me
one where I am strong.
©Oct. 5/19
Picture via Pinterest

Pain’s Soft Embrace

Softly whispered words
lick my skin like satin
calling forth
a craving
a desire
a yearning
for the touch of your hands
the touch of your lips
your body pressed to mine.
Wind around me
capture my heart
protect the innocence I cherish
protect the woman I am
protect the love we share
please don’t let us burn.
Flashes of passion
day after day
until disease came to town.
A rotting worm
weaseling in between
flaunting her deadly smiles.
With a snap of her fingers
you are gone.
Melancholic tears
haunting melody
my yesterday fades away
setting sun
crimson gold
my life undone.

©Oct. 4/19
Picture is my own.
Matlock Beach.

Truth’s Soft Sadness

Autumn’s crimson
golden blondes
faded
crushed to black
as earth cools
sending to sleep
Nature’s denizens.
Warmth from the sun
fleeting
a sad small gesture of defiance
in summer’s waning days.
Fallen leaves
blanket the ground
breath fresh on the air
frost on the blades of grass.
Honking geese flee the sky
another herald of summer done
sand is boxed
sun set to side
now we must
return from fantasy land.
I must let you go
let you return to your life
ignore these crystal tears
for you have moved on
even when you say that you have not
but baby
I know the truth.

©Oct. 3/19
Picture is my own

Word of the Day Challenge #65-Untitled Poem

I saw you
walking down the street
hair lustrous
eyes luminous
all women
falling at your feet.
Suave
dapper in dress
cool smiles
hot words
caress the mind
the body
falling to your control.
World class Adonis
a lothario consumed with lust
you have shattered a million hearts
until you met me…..
I made you believe I was the one.
I stalked passed you
a belle donna
in more ways than one
stilettos clicking
hips sashaying
I drew your eyes.
Come to my web
feel the silken strands enwrap
beware
the sting of my love.
You lay upon my altar
sacrifice to love
sacrifice to pain
never ending
I will kill you near until you die.
You thought I was joking
when I told you
I wanted to add you
to my
Rogue’s Gallery.
Centerpiece
artwork
you shall be
until another lost love calls
asking for my help
to make them disappear.
©Oct. 2/19
Picture via Pinterest

Ire’s Blade

You want to know
am I ok?
You broke my heart
left me bleeding
a torn wreck
on the roadside.
Crawled home I did
a ghoul
face smeared with snot
vision blurred by tears
scared the children
who ran screaming
for their parents.
You did this to me.
You tore out my heart.
You destroyed me…..
you destroyed my life…..
you destroyed the essence of me
for that
there can be no forgiveness.
Rage.
Black.
Boiling…..
erupting from within…..
I want to pummel
I want to break
I want to tear at you
I want you to weep.
I want you to know
how all of this feels.
A mere blip
a wrinkle
at a moment in time you needed
a creature
a woman
so much stronger
but willing to submit to you.
Daggers slip
cracks appear
no longer am I a wife
no longer am I a lover
no longer will you look at me.
Sit I will
upon the ledge dusted with sunset golds
letting the light dim
no longer am I…..

©Oct. 1/19
Picture one of my own.
Matlock Beach 2017

Love’s Pain Never Lessens

This is an accompany poem to Your Fool.

Resigned
that is how I feel
why I thought this time would be different
I could not tell you.
When you said you loved me
I pashawed
how can you love someone from afar?
You can
for I do
which is why this pain
erupting inside of me
feels as though I am rending in two.
I want to wail
screech
pound upon the alter of fate
demanding to know
why am I the last always
prophesied to never have care
poor lonely woman
love has always been my downfall.
Whispered words
slipped between the worlds of reality
of dreams
of fantasy
lulling me
pacifying my need
for love and adoration.
Weep I shall
for fantasies unplayed
for dreams unrealized
letting go of this infatuation
with love
with the thought
that there is someone for me.
Head hung low
see not the tears aglitter
upon my cheeks.
Good bye my love
I shall whisper
into your sleeping ear
thank you for these times
but flee I must
staying here
will only bleed me.

©Sept. 30/19
Picture is one of my own Matlock Beach
2017