Drift Away

Peeping
through curtained hair
steaming cup
scented air
turn of the page
soft whisper
the only sound
in days
I have heard from you.
Wondering
thoughts in my mind
happier days
times of dreams
times of love
laughter
when did it fade away
why did it not last?
Chin in hand
tears blurring sight
I stare
taking in everything
memorizing
features
the strong set of your jaw
the lean fingers
which have pleasured me so many times
aware that we are at an end.
When did we become so distant?
When did the emotions drain?
Both of us
empty husks
sharing a house
after vowing for evermore.
©April 5/20
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I See…..

I see that smile
I see the truth
I know what lies
behind the silver tooth
I know that no good will be had
pain
anguish
thoughts of death
I have been here
I will not fail
I will not let fall
any more children.
One
two
three
four
children missing
through the door
five
six
seven
eight
oh dear
you are too late.
Grimace
charge to door
late
to the dance floor
dagger in hand
vengeance
let us go darling
can you fox trot?
Watch
ebb
flow
crimson river
your screams
muffled
cautious
I wait
your life
flowing away.
They heralded me a champion.
They heralded me a saviour.
They herald me
when they never heard me
they…..
are as guilty as him.
©April 4/20
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Brutalized Harmony

Agonized moan
crawling forward
digging fingers to dirt
pull self along
left to burn
left to bleed
indomitable will…..
I will not die.
Hands
so many hands
tearing
ripping clothes
pulling hair
closed fist to the face
I do not 
I did not
I should never have been brutalized.
Taken to a party
fed booze
pills
drugs
good time girl
rumor had it
not my truth
yet you did believe it.
Face blushed
covered in scarlet hue
eyes burn
pain
rage…..
must find help
must find it now
I shall not die
I will come for you
you may want to hide.
©April 3/20
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Ebony Voiced

Grey shadowed fingers
reaching
twisting
plundering
stealing from mind
command of speech
suspend belief
compromised.
Into me 
they do reach.
Tears
unbidden
shuddering shoulders
stay away
creature of the night
become twisted
haunted eyes
seeing
past
present
future
bleak
wraith like
misted move.
Scuttling
head down
eyes gouged
blind
from arrogance
hatred
negligence
black ribbon chains
stealing my sanity.
My heart shrinks
wrapped in on self
no longer light
no longer buoyant
shackled
pain laden
dragged to the bottom of the rock.
I see no rescue
I see no saviour
I see…..
black nothingness
a future
the gods have allowed me to see.
©April 2/20
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Word of the Day Challenge #96-Untitled Poem

Fingers pressed
rain dusted pane
pain
glowing lights
fade
amber to gold
to silence.
Lost
lips tremble
I hate this
hate feeling I am meaningless
a game
played by you
until bored
I become garbage on the side.
Do you laugh?
Do you point?
Do you crow?
Look at that stupid bitch
falling for me
falling for you
cow
she is willing to do anything
play her along
get what you need
show those videos
disrespect 
she will never know.
Each unanswered message
each unanswered call
tears
fall like rain
realizing
was your game.
©April 1/20
Picture my own

Fifteen Minutes

15 minute increments.
That is how I live
8 hours a day
five days a week
15 minute increments.
I watch the clock carefully
I must excuse myself
I need to go
I need to wash my hands
to keep you
and myself safe.
15 minute increments
this is not a game
this is my new reality
as I serve the public
who need to eat
who need their care
who need reassurance
who need a friendly ear.
15 minute increments.
I wonder
up to 14 days
to incubate
please wait I must sanitize
I am sorry I have to make you stand
this is for your safety and mine.
15 minute increments.
This is my new reality.
This is my new truth.
This is a new life for everyone.
We are all in this together.
There is no need
to push
punch
scream
like animals in a zoo
suddenly released
set upon one another.
Bloody massacre.
15 minute increments.
I hope you have a great day.
I need a moment please.
Stand over the sink
how many 15 minutes have passed?
Single tear drops.
Chin quivers.
Deep breath.
Stand up straight.
Smile on my face.
In my ear
your voice
reassuring
‘baby you got this
it is only 15 minutes.’
©March 31/20
Picture is my own

Elite Scrimmage

Crimson moon
scuttled dark
tempers flare
short
walk away quickly
before
death does come
he is tired
of waiting in the corner.
Leaning upon his scythe
waiting
dreaming for the time
when you will fuck up
think without care
speak without reason
as I listen
wondering
head cocked to the side
how much further do you dare?
Push me
tempt me
keys pressed violently
deep breath
control the red dimmed vision
you ninny
dancing around
ape like
only
they are smarter.
Tarnished copper crown
falls
rolling through dusted floors
crocodile tears
ranting
how this is so undeserved
how could we be so mean
how could we be……
medieval like
as his head does roll
right to my boot toe
I just smile
death always did like
a good game of soccer.
©March 30/20
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