Patience

You know I am here.

Sitting.

Waiting.

Patient. 

A time will come 

when you shall falter

and I…..

well

I will jump in.

Dark desire

I dance under your  skin.

Twisted need

I am the fire in your eyes.

Wanton thirst

I am the blemish on your soul.

Your self-hatred.

Your doubt.

Your history.

I am the one…..

Me…..

I hold the key to you

only though

if you let me out to play.

Black rage

bottled up

close to boiling point

growl in dismay

you know

oh yes you do

you know I will get out.

Ah 

here we go again.

You drink.

You get drunk

You allow me a peek

small glimmer

taste dew tinged air

before you reclaim

take back

your inner space.

I am…..

Nightmares made real.

Riding.

Surfing.

Bumping into your barrier.

I could thump away

kick

scream

try to escape

only to heighten

tighten

your grip on me.

There is no substitute for patience.

With patience comes complacency.

With complacency comes a weakening.

With weakening I shall…..

Terrorize.

Torment.

Torture.

With weakening

I shall break free

never fear 

I am always waiting here.

©June 2/19

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