Word of the Day Challenge Poem #32 (Untitled)

When unfettered

when time unfolds

peace comes to heart

desirous new needs

felt

found

I am who I am meant to be.

Confident?

One might think

yet I am not.

No longer is there a voice

no longer do I berate

but critical

oh yes

I struggle with…….

acceptance 

of what I see in the mirror.

Afraid?

No longer

never again

for I am strong

for I am love

for the nightmare has been banished

sent on its way.

Sometimes though

in the dark of night

the nightmare returns

causing me to scream in fright.

To beg 

for help that never arrives.

Lost?

Never again

no longer.

For I know who I am

I know the path that I must walk

how to get where I need to be.

Once I was…..

lost that is…..

wandering

alone

unaccepting

hiding from all the pain.

All of this…..

the ideas

the emotions

foreign to me.

What I have found

a bone deep happiness

settling in

taking over.

Once there was pain.

Once there was fear.

Once….. 

I could only numb

my mind.

©May 19/19

Untitled Love Poem #2

I thought I was done.

No more words

no more sorrow

no more hitch of breath

when these memories cross my mind.

Brokenhearted

sadness tinged remembrances

viewed through reality

knowing what was coming

knowing how it would end

bittersweet

yet I would do it

all over again.

Settling over me

mist of time

recalling moments

magic

small tear escaping

our good times

were so damn good

we fit together.

The ending

volcanic catastrophe

numbing my soul

numbing my affections

turning us daft.

Regret nothing

I do not.

Wait…..

I do have regret

nothing to do with you

to do with myself….

I regret my panic.

I regret my decision to stay.

I regret believing you 

as you told me it would be fine.

I do not regret

our love

our time

for what you gave to me

what you taught me

are lessons

no one else could have.

You built my confidence.

You built my art.

You built my belief in me.

You pushed me 

made me more myself.

Always will I love you

even as 

we do part.

©May 18/19

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