It pains me to say this.
It pains me…..to admit this…..
I miss you.
I miss waking in the middle of the night
your arms around me
holding me tight
chasing away the nightmares
the monsters
that rip through my heart.
Demons
dancing through the glades
tripping through the tulips
raping
destroying
plunder
all that is mine.
Glass shards
dig into my knees
platitudes I mouth
forgiveness I need
penitent I am…..
my fault
my passion
my need…..
to…..
make you feel?
Never did I feel safer
than awakening
held in your arms
pulled close
fear chased.
I need you.
I am sorry
I cannot leave you be.
Tears
leak from the corners of my eyes
blurred vision
what is it
about you
about me
that we cannot let go.
Oh wait
maybe it is me who cannot let go
maybe I am the stalker
you the deer.
I do not know.
I am afraid I am the freak
that you
the one who fears
what I might do.
Blade drawn
macabre smile
twists my face
must accept darlin’
you have lost…..
we are lost…..
April 3/19
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay
Hard context, blue story… Beautiful poem
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Yhank you. 😊
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You are welcome!
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😊😊
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I particularly like this. So many emotions..
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Thank you.
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You’re welcome! I’ll leave you alone now.
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Stop being a brat! 😕😕
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How am I being a brat?
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Going on and on about leaving me alone. That I am getting tired of you. I have had a busy week already lol. Wait until the weekend and I will be on stuck to you like wallpaper. 😂😂
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I highly doubt that..
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Bwahahahahaha I am off this weekend which gives me a lot of time to talk to you. 😃😃 I am being cheeky
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You’re always cheeky…
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Makes me adorable mwahahahahaha
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You haven’t been adorable since you were a baby…..
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C’mon now that is just the green eyed monster talking
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No jay-lyn…… the green eyed monster was your prom date …
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Ah he wasn’t all that bad. A little slimey perhaps…..
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I don’t need to hear the details…….
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Oh stop it…..he was a frog not a prim e
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You’ve made some very questionable choices in life sis…
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No kiss could ever make him a prince. And I own all of them good or bad.
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Good night you…
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Ta ta back later.
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Easy with the ta ta’s… I know how you are.
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😂
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Just saying, sis…
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Someone is perky and alive this morning.
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Alive yes praise God!! Perky? Ehhh..
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Well ypu are perkier than me
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Wake up John’s here!!
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Nooooooo I wanna goback to bed.
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Fine… go back to sleep boo boo head
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Can’t gotta work
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Sorry toots
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Me too 😭😭
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Don’t cry!! Look on the bright side! You have an entire weekend coming up where you’re supposedly going to chat all over me like wallpaper!
Wallpaper… we’re so outdated…
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Lmao 😂😂😂😂
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Prince
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That’s me. But I rain periwinkle…
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I have no comeback. That makes no sense. I am about to have company so I will not be here.
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🤦♂️
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Dear Jay-lyn I nominated you for The Mystery Blogger Award http://lynyo.blog/2019/04/03/mystery-blogger-award/ Hope you the best of lucks!
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Thank you. I will most likely not get to until weekend. 😊
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Welcome!
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Heart touching💓
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Thank you. 😊
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So intense. Lovely
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Thank you. 😊
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