Win/Win

Its kinda hard
these feelings that I have
I play
I pretend
so my friends
they don’t realize.
My heartache.
My pain.
My wicked dreams.
I know
these screams
locked inside my head
these truths that I see
there is no doubt
fool that I be.
On my knees
realizing
knowing
no end
fuck me
like a tether
between my teeth.
Do you understand?
bit between the teeth….
shackled in
shod
pain filled
tears
slow streaks upon the pane.
My
oh my
are you a figment of my dreams?
A broken wish 
made upon a dead star?
Is what you feel
what I feel
a blissful memory?
Or
lost
your what the fuck
my wanna kick your…….
we both got our way.
December 16/18

Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

A single hard working mom of a soon to be teenage son. A poet and story teller I have wanted to write since I was a child. This space is where I share stories about myself and my life and the creative poetry that stirs my soul. My hope is you will pull up a chair and a cup of coffee delving into the world that I offer and you find simple enjoyment for a few moments. Welcome to The Wonderful & Wacky World of One Single Mom