Girlish Dreams

Encircled in your arms

held tight

I told you my truth

my history

expecting you to run.

Tears shed

nuzzled my neck

tightened your hold

told me I was safe.

I believed.

I trusted.

Sit here I do

unshed

blurred vision

wondering how it went wrong

wondering

why does it hurt so much still?

Fool.

I was.

Tried to deny

tried to hide

truth

feelings run deep

but

only in me.

What is that song?

Unforgettable?

Forgettable I am.

Heart broken

anger twisted

pain still the same

how do you make it look so easy

to let go

to walk away?

©Jan. 22/20

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Within

Within

deep rooted anguish

for you no longer care.

Words are spoken

gestures are made

once actions were louder

but silence is even louder

letting me know

exactly where I stand.

You made me so happy.

You made my heart sing.

You made me cry a million times

telling me it was for my own good….

Your letting go

your saying good bye

for how else can I go forward

if I am still clinging to broken dreams?

Darkness

where light once did reside

there is no welcoming reprieve

pain ebbs and flows

never really gone

lesser for awhile.

I can write so many love poems

I can write so many lyrical words

I can write……

I can destroy…..

I can maim you on paper…..

I can kill you with my pen…..

What I can not do

is kill

the feelings within.

©Jan 22/20

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