Absolution of Self

Ever sat

deep pit welling inside

blank eyed stare

sunlight does not penetrate

darkness

no less inkier

than the space I am in.

Trembling

black chasm

right beneath my feet

blinded so

by the roaring voices

pushing out all other thoughts

all other sounds.

Falling

arms spread out

let me go

I hate you

it is my turn

it is my time……..

Vicious

lips drawn in rage

I turn back

face to face

I will battle

I will win

I will never

not ever

fall to my knees

chained by the past

from which

I have broken free.

Bowed head

on my knees

shattered

not beaten

not again shackled

trapped in whirling vortex…..

I am free.

I loosed the beast

roar into the night

fly

my fears

my addictions

my hurts

my angers

leave me……

Absolved.

A babe born anew

a canvas

awaiting

awakening

to the beauty within.

©Feb. 24/20

Picture is my own

Ebbing Love

I watch

wondering

wandering

waiting

for slowly

my worth

my truth

my veracity

becoming known

opening myself

to opportunities

while you

well

you may not like what transpires.

Standing tall

no more hiding

no more pretending

I am beauty

I am love

I am creative

I am……

all of the above.

Becoming tired are you?

Annoyed

with my shouting from rooftops

glorying

in self worth

in self awareness

in self love

making me

a woman to beware of.

Always headstrong

I fight

for the things that I want

the future I see

tangible

to the touch

to what I desire.

I am done

waiting

while you waffle

right

wrong

yes

or no?

When you decide

darling do not be surprised

if I am no longer there.

©Feb. 24/20

Picture is my own